1. Today I am grateful that my mum came home from holidays. She was away for 2.5 weeks over the Christmas period and I just missed her. So. Damn. Much.
My mum and I have had a rough path on the road to the relationship we have now. Full of many ups and downs, months of not talking, heated ugly words ... it's not always been very pretty. On both of our parts.
I used to be jealous of the mother-daughter relationships my friends had with their mums. Shopping, softness and Saturday coffees. But I don't like shopping or coffee and I'm not very soft. I think my mum was made just for me and I'm lucky to have her.
2. For a job that makes me use my brain. Every day with this job I am confused and frustrated and have to think and problem solve to get an answer. After working too many years in a mindless job it's kind of thrilling to have to search to find an answer and feeling some sense of achievement.
I don't know if this job is forever. I know everyone says this but I've always really believed that I am meant to do something big with my life. Something meaningful and that makes a difference. I'm still trying to figure it all out.
3. For a great night's sleep last night. After days of being sick and feeling blocked up it was much needed. Sleep is the best medicine. I would marry it.
1. I'm grateful for being back at work today. The past two weeks of 'holidays' were exhausting. Trying to entertain and capture the imagination of a toddler is exhausting, especially in the heatwave. I felt like such a failure every time I turned on the tv.
I think it takes a lot of patience and creativity to be a stay at home mum. I crave adult interaction and challenging my brain. I have accepted that's just who I am and I think being a strong, independent, working woman is a good thing for Thom to witness as he grows. I want him to place the same value on money that I do.
2. I'm grateful to have found a friend at work who gets my dirty, inappropriate sense of humour. I like having an email pal to break up the day. I laughed out loud at my computer today ... Which would have been more awkward if I was in the office.
3. I'm so very grateful to be at peace with the end of my marriage. I was emailing with a friend today who is still in the height of his relationship breakup. He is very angry, emotional, depressed and I try to empathise but I realise that I'm not there any more. I'm so glad. Breakups suck the life and joy out of you.
Here's someone who brings me joy:
